I'm not hearing good news from the eye doc. If it hasn't improved in three months, odds are against me. She keeps insisting that my surgeon is one of the best. I respectfully disagreed with her. She says anatomically, my eye looks great. Fanfkntastic, but it's failing at its primary purpose. So who gives a shit how it looks anatomically? Fuck, I should have known better than to go for surgery. It sounds like she's leaning toward another one. Do I fkn gamble again? Are you fkn high? No. The answer is no. The answer is always no for elective surgery. Somehow I forgot that.
I made it out to the parking lot before the heavy sobs hit me. Does that count in the positive or the negative column? Maybe they cancel each other out?
I'm glad it's Friday, and I can hide from everyone for a few days.