Sunday, February 26, 2017
may the bridges I burn light the way
I sort of made tentative plans to go out with a casual friend last night. I wanted to hang out with her, but I wasn't that excited about the chosen activity. Mostly because it was so far to drive, and it would end up being a late night.
I've turned into quite a morning person the past few years. I'm up bright and early around 5 or 6am, which means I'm tired by 9 or 10pm. That said, I can stay up later, but I need a really great reason. And I don't want to drive a long way home when I'm sleepy.
I felt like an asshole texting her back and saying no. That said, I was so relieved to be asleep by 9:30pm.
Why is it so hard to make friends at this stage in my life? I have more confidence than ever, so it should be much simpler for me to say "hey, you seem fun, let's hang out."
And yet I don't.