Monday, May 8, 2017
maybe I can outrun it
If I tell myself enough times, I almost believe that I can live a normal life.
If I go enough days without a migraine, I almost believe that I can live a normal life.
And then (if I'm lucky), five days go by without a migraine.
Then one hits me hard like last night. And I remind myself that I'll never live a normal life.
I was mostly having a regular day, and my head went from zero to 60mph in about 20 minutes while I wasn't paying attention. Okay, so I kind of knew it was there, but it was later in the evening, so I thought I could outrun it by falling asleep before it got bad. Sometimes sleep can abort a migraine. I tell myself that lie so much, that I almost believe it.
I decided it was bad enough to suffer through an injection and get faster relief, rather than a pill and wait soooo long. I hit a vein. Blood everywhere.
It's morning, and I know I should medicate again. It's been three hours, and it's still mild.
Maybe I can outrun it....