My lovely Galahad came home last night from his martial arts
class and asked how I was and if I'd been crying. Laugh, that of
course broke the dam, and my tears started. Poor guy.
;) He helped me to
analyze things and think things through. I'm trying a chemistry
experiment with my CoQ10. I am theorizing that if it helps with my
migraines, then it must be affecting my serotonin levels, which in turn
should help to normalize my moods. Sound like a plan? And, if it
doesn't technically work, maybe I can ride the placebo rainbow. Do
placebos work if you are hoping they will? Can I self-fulfill my
prophecy? Is my Psych degree going to help or hinder me here?
Cat's
out of the bag. I'm a geek with a Psych degree and an overactive mind.
=p My guy wasn't quite
sure what to make of my experiment, but I think he's just happy that I'm
trying something. I'm so stubborn that I refuse to let this take over
my life. Enough is fucking enough. I'm tired of being like this.
My mother has been dead long enough for me to deal with it, so I cannot
understand why it might still be bothering me. I still don't think
it's her death that is actually messing me up, but I suppose everyone in
denial says that. =p
Odd that I can retain my sense of humor while still being sad. I laugh
& cry simultaneously all the time. I've only noticed a few other
people who do that. Does that have to do with multi-tasking?
Maybe cuz I'm so good at it, I can multi-task my emotions, too.
=D
/wave to my monkey friend ;)
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